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Today is starting out BAD!! So I am to go in on cycle day 21 and get blood taken to see if I O. Well the freaken military hospital is retarded!! They are like well we don't have anything about tests so you should go talk to you primary. Mind you I sat there for 45 minutes waiting to be told to go upstairs. Get upstairs and she isn't there so he says come back in 45 minutes. So we went ahead and went to DH's appointment and then come home. So I call them and they are still like well you just need to leave a message. NO I CAN'T!!! I need this test done today!! SO one of the Sgts is supposed to be calling me in 5-10 minutes it has been atleast 20!! So now I am on hold again!! :) Going Crazy!!
On another note! :) We are moving into an apartment on June 4. So that will be nice. Yea we are going to have carpet and a dishwasher!!!! We are just taking Brogan and friend of mine loves my dog so he is taking him.
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| Lonely! |
[05 Apr 2005|10:24pm] |
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Well DH is working nights this week so I am really lonely. I went to a borders class with Terri and that took up 4 hours of my time. So now it is just the getting to bed part! :) That isn't easy to do.
Jason goes in for a SA as soon as we get a hold of the DR that is doing it. They won't answer or call back! :{ I need to make an appt. so that I can go in and get my blood test results and get back on Clomid b/c she told Jason it should work. We actually talked about it and if he has a low or 0 sperm count we will adopt. If it is just low we will try things but we both decided no on IUI & IVF.
Going to go let puppy out. Will write more later.
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| BLAH!! |
[21 Feb 2005|08:23pm] |
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I am feeling kinda blah lately! DH and I are kinda looking for a place to rent with this other couple. I am not sure if I want to do it just b/c I like being with DH alone. Though it is pretty hard to do b/c we have 2 dogs.
I started AF on Friday and it hurt like H*ll! I was in so much pain that I couldn't move and had to call into work. I went to the DR and (new one) she said that Clomid will do that. She herself just had a clomid baby and said she could do all of that from the base hospital if I'd rather do that then a specialist. I would be ok with that beings she knows what I would be going through and symptoms and what not. I have really cut myself off from friends lately. I am so down I think that I just don't feel like talking to anyone. DH and I are doing great and I am just enjoying spending time with him. We are kinda considering adoption again. We were driving down 72nd and there is a BIG sign about adoption and I caught him looking at it. I don't know I just feel like that is what I should do and am supposed to do. I told him we should just adopt b/c then we will end up pregnant.
My brother was home for a week and we got to go down and spend the day with him and it was really nice. I haven't seen him since July 04. He is a Marine in NC. I miss him!!
Work is going well. I really enjoy what I am doing and am thinking about going to school. DH really wants me to. I love him so much! He just wants me to get the best life he can give me!
Well going for know, KU is on!!!
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| Well I guess the first.... |
[21 Jan 2005|09:48pm] |
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prescription worked. I took the progestrone pill one night and started the next day. and OMG did I get the menstral cramps to prove it! :O) So I start taking the Clomid on day 5. Have been getting a lot of support from the girls on my USAF site. I feel a little out of place on the sheknows site but probably just need to hang in there more. Only been on there for about 2 weeks.
I spoke to Marc (brother) and they closed on there first house today so now he is off to get a puppy! :O) They seem like they are doing really well out in NC so I am very happy for them.
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| Had my first Dr. appt with specialist! |
[19 Jan 2005|07:49pm] |
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Well I went to the Dr. today and he gave me 2 prescriptions. I have to take progestrone (sp) to make me start my period and then I have to take Clomid when I start on day 5. I am happy that I am getting things started but have not had AF for 2 months now so was hoping that I would go and get a BFP and not have to do any of this crap. I am very very depressed at the moment and just keep crying. He is making me chart and fax it to him everymonth. I just hate that I can't just get PG like everyone else. It seems like everytime I turn around someone else is PG. I just hate it and I can't wait until they figure out what is going on. I guess I have quite a few cysts and guessing that might have caused the absence of AF. It is just hurting so bad b/c I did what I always tell myself not to do. I got excited b/c I have NEVER in my entire life missed a period let alone 2. And I still am not lucky. I feel like I have let my DH down and my mom. She wants a grandbaby again and we both want a baby so bad it sucks!!
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| New Year Resolution! |
[29 Dec 2004|10:26pm] |
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OK so I am a couple of days early on this. My New Year Resolution is to be a better housekeeper and wife. I have been slacking quite a but lately. DH cleaned my entire house for me and I still didn't even keep it clean. I hate it! I feel like I fail him over and over.
We are start seeing a fertility specialist on Jan. 19th. I am excited but scared. I really don't want to go through this but am going to so that I can have a baby. I am going to keep a PG journal so you might start seeing a lot more posts and probably some whining and bitching! :O) Starting NOW! I was a week late this month and started on Sunday (the 26th). Well I was VERY sore and was in terrible pain! So I had to go to work and got there I was hurting so bad it was making me sick! I threw up once before I went to work and the whole hour I was there I was in the bathroom throwing up! I called my boss and went home. I took 2 pain killers before I left work and almost passed out on the way home! :o| Slept all day work up ate and was sick again! The whole time I have just been spotting. Monday I spotted, Tuesday I spotted, Tuesday night did absolutely NOTHING, and today spotted! I took a PG test and it was a big fat NO!! Of course I knew it would be! So now I am trying to figure out what is going on with my body!
We got a new puppy for Christmas. He is an Olde English Bulldogge and his name is Brogan. He is a pain in the butt! So funny though!
We had a pretty good Christmas. It was nice seeing my family and his family again. I miss them very much! I didn't realize how hard it would be being away from family. It was so easy when we would argue or I needed something or was just bored I could drive 15 minutes or less to go see my mom/dad and my sisters. I hate it now it is a 3 hour drive. I know it is only 3 hours but it is still hard. Offutt is not a horrible place to be. It is NE and they can't drive and I HATE the Cornhuskers but it is ok. DH doesn't like the shop all that much but he is dealing with it. I have met some really nice people up here and it helps a lot. I love where I work (most of the time). I work at the Enchanted Castle (check out the web site www.theenchantedcastle.com ) It is not some bar or anything! My boss is a nut. She is so funny sometimes and then there are times I don't even want to talk to her. But I can be that way too! Carrie is another girl I work with and she is hilarious! She is a pervert but hilarious. Makes work a lot funner when she is there!
My friend Cheryl is preggo! She just found out she is having a girl. She is a very nice person and I am very happy for her. It is a little hard to do but I handle it very well I think. I keep telling her I am living through her right now. She lets me go to all the Dr. appt. and is letting me come in when she delivers! I am excited!
Well I best get to bed. Night!
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| Happy Holidays |
[27 Dec 2004|07:28pm] |
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Hey I am not keeping this updated as much as I should. We are still in NE. It is freazing here!! My friend Cheryl is preggo and she found out she is having a girl today. We are starting fertility treatments on the 19th of January so I should be back a lot! I am going to keep a journal on the whole thing.
Miss Tonya! Tonya WHERE ARE YOU!!??
We got a puppy. It is an Olde English Bulldogge and his name is Brogan. Not a whole lot is happening.
Had a decent Christmas. Didn't get much but being with family is all that mattered. Well gonna go help DH with pup!
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Well I haven't done this for a long time but not much is happening. Let's start with Jason and I. We got in a big argument yesterday. Because we were going to go to the mall and he remembered his show was on like 5 minutes from home and I told him to go home b/c the mall wasn't that big of a deal. I just wanted a stamp. Then he aruged with me for about 10 minutes before he finally turned around. We get home and he is all like well I have had to deal with your attitude for the last three days and I didn't want to do with it tonight. HELLO! (I will explain my "attitude" next! So I walk out of the room almost in tears get down stairs and start crying! So about 5 minutes later he comes downstairs and apologizes. So we had a little heart to heart talk. :O) Now we are fine!
I started a new job and don't get to see him that much. I work at this cool store that sells licesened Disney figurines and stuff. Web site is www.theenchantedcastle.com . You should check it out. Anyways about my attititude! I work at that store and it is in the mall. Well the new mommies and walking around with their new babies and the preg. ones are walking and it really started to get to me! So now I have been depressed for the last week and a half, really bad the last 3 days! We talked Monday and he keeps telling me once I get to my job I will go to the docter. I feel like I can't provide him a family so in the back of my mind I feel he is going to go somewhere else to get what he wants. I know he won't do this but I am so scared.
My Daddy is buying my fence and bringing it up to install next weekend. :O) So I will be able to go get my doggie! :O) I am so excited about that! Well I am going to go now!
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| I miss my baby! |
[08 Sep 2004|09:12pm] |
We made it to Offutt AFB last Wed. We got housing in 2 days so that was really nice. We got a 3 bed 2 bath! :O) The best thing so far is I got to meet Tonya! YEA!!! We just went to dinner. The food and service sucked but actually getting to meet someone you have talked to for like 3 months just online is very nice. Her son is a cutie!
I miss my baby! He is at home with my parents still! I can't wait till we get a fence and get him up here! It is so lonely and I don't have anyone to play with! :O( Waiting on a check so we can get fence up!
Just got the internet today and cable. That is really nice. I have an interview tomorrow and I have to get up early. I don't have much to talk about right now.
Had a little break down earlier today! Was watching Tv and I am so tired of trying for a baby! Every month at that "time" I get all depressed and sad. It's just so disappointing. Every month the same thing over and over! I am tired of it. I am to the point now where I have it hammered into my head that it will never happen and the only way it will happen is to adopt or something. That movie I watched was called "Baby for Sale". At the end of it it said "Childbirth is a gift of nature, adoption is a gift of love" something along those lines I forgot already! I would love to have a baby ourselves but it has been 5 years and I know we haven't gone to the Dr. about anything but personally I don't want to go through all the fertility tests and stuff. Right now I am telling myself if God wanted us to have one he would've done it by now and as much as I think about adoption I think that that is what I am supposed to do. Like he is trying to tell us we are meant to adopt.
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| LAST DAY!! |
[30 Aug 2004|10:58pm] |
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Today is my last day! I am sooo excited! I can't wait to move! I get to meet Tonya in 2 days!! And my friends from Offutt!! I am so ready to leave this place! I have lots of friends here that it will be sad to leave but I am ready! I am going to leave at midnight! HOORAY!!
Well I took a PG test this weekend and it was neg. I am so tired of wishing and wanting! I am giving up and I am not ever going to have kids. Maybe adopt but I am not trying ever again! I don't know why I can't and some people can! We were driving down the interstate and this car flew by us going atleast 80-85 with a baby looked like it just learned to stand in the middle of the front seat standing looking at the back window! OMG Put the baby in a car seat! Then I saw a guy with an infant carrier in the front seat! Why do people have to be so stupid and can have babies! It makes me sick!
Had a dream about Kass last night that she was getting abused and stuff and I don't know what to do! I am so scared for her but there isn't anything I can do!
Well I am going to finish this job, clean my desk, and give away some stuff!
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I only have 2 more days left. I was told that if I wanted to make today my last day that would be fine! :) Hello don't tempt me! My friends brought a cake for me today and I got a card. So that was nice. I didn't cry like they thought I would! :O)
We have an appointment with the housing people at 10 AM on September 2. So we are going down a day early so we might still be able to see Tonya, Brian, and Riley! I sure hope so! I am getting very excited about getting there and meeting some of the people I met. If I don't get to meet Tonya I will be sad but will completely understand why. They are so busy and I know how important it is to see family and stuff. :O) I am hoping we get a house with a fence. I need to figure out how much it will cost to get one just in case. I can't leave my baby at mom and dad's very long.
My parents bought a house and will be moving soon. They have to sell there's and we are very excited about that. They are downsizing to a 2 bedroom from a 5-6 bedroom! Kinda crazy! But then again they won't have any kids living with them and mom won't have to be going up and down stairs all the time!
Tonya redid my journal! Isn't it cute! I love it! She said she would try and teach me once we both get settled! Her in England me in Nebraska! I am glad I met her! She is a very cool person and a great friend.
I am ready to get to Nebraska to meet Charlene and them. I talk to Charlene like everynight. She is a very nice person can't wait to meet her.
Twila and Justin decided that it would be best to leave the AF! It is going to be sad but I completely understand. They are having such a hard time with everything! I feel so sorry for her and wish I could do something! We are still going to keep in touch!
Well I think that is long enough! Maybe more later! ;o)
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| Storms!! |
[23 Aug 2004|11:37pm] |
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Well it is storming like a b*tch down here! We were stuck in the bathroom at work for an hour! Not very exciting. I only have 5 more days!
My weekend went well. Jason and I went and got a new washer/dryer, coffee table, end table, and dining room table/chairs. We actually agreed on a coffee table and end table so we got it. That is very hard for us to do! :O)
I had a HGP Saturday! My sister's starter party! YEA!! I am so excited! She is going to be awesome!! Then my hubby and I hung out! I love hanging out with him! I can't wait to have our own house again! Well just one that we aren't sharing with anyone! :O) I love that my parents have let me live there and I am very thankful that I have had them to help me through Jason's BMT and Tech School but I am ready to leave!
I called the housing people today and they were really mean! The guy was just totally rude!
Talked to my friend Tonya a little today! She is sick! I am sad b/c I only have internet for about 5 more days and then I won't be able to talk to her every night. We can call each other though.
Well I really got to get to work so I will have to write more tomorrow! The hour in the bathroom hurt us! :O)
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| I'm so excited!! |
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I am so excited!! Tonya told me today that they will be going by Offutt on their way to Ohio!! That means that it is possible that we could meet for lunch or something! I hope we can! She is such an awsome person and I think Brian is nice enough to just stop for like an hour so we can meet! :O) PLEASE!! I am just to excited to work! So much is going on! Tonya coming through and then moving in 18 days!
I met a couple ladies at Offutt. Charlene is one that I talk to the most. She is very nice but going through a hard time. Her DH just left for Korea about 2 months ago. So she is alone. I can' t wait to get there and hang out. She is going to teach me how to use Photo Shop and stuff! :O) Then I can make cool things too! I will get this internet thing down!
I am leaving for Texas tomorrow and will be going down for the weekend. I won't be coming home until Monday night! I am so excited b/c I get to bring my baby home with me! I miss him so much! But I can't wait! We are supposed to go to Dallas or to some lake down there with his buddies! No big deal! It is his last weekend there and I think he should spend time with them if he wants b/c I get to bring him home with me.
I only have 9 days left to work! I am pretty scared! I have been here for over 2.5, it is stable and I make decent $$$. I am really going to miss the people I work with! Sharon is a very close friend who has stood by me since the beginning. She is in another department and I feel like we are sisters. She has helped me through a whole lot of things that I could never thank her enough for! Rachel and Dianne are in the same department as I am and I feel that we are all very good friends. I have known Rachel almost my entire life. She is a wonderful person and I am going to miss her. But she says we can be pen pals and everything so that is cool! Dianne and I have gotten to be good friends I think! She is a very nice person, her only down fall is she thinks she is the Princess but she's really not! I AM!! :O) She also thinks that b/c her husband Brian is the supervisor and she thinks that makes her special! Then there is Dave and Don the diecutting guys. They come back everyonce in a while! Going to miss the debates with Dave!! We'll see when November comes! :O) VOTE BUSH!!!! And I can't forgert Darren!! He is a crack up!! Wow I won't be jumping out of my seat anymore b/c someone knocked the buckets off the wall or anything like that!! YEA!! I am really going to miss them all!! You guys are my FRIENDS!! Not just my temporary ones, Dianne! :O)
Ok then there is the day shift people but we'll get to them another time and the ones I am happy to leave!! Got to get to work!!
Hope you can stop Tonya!! :O) PLEASE BRIAN!!!
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| Just Hanging in There!! |
[11 Aug 2004|01:39am] |
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I am having a difficult day today. The last couple weeks I have been having some what I thought could be pg symptoms and then AFlow came to visit! So I was trying not to get excited and thinking I was pg b/c we have tried before and never have and then I get all depressed. Part of me knew that I am not and then part of me wanted it so bad b/c I know it would make Jason really happy! I feel like I am being punished! Did I do something to make someone think I couldn't do it? I see people who have kids that they shouldn't have. Those kids that have parents who don't care and abuse them! Then 2 people like us who want kids and can take care of them and give them the love they deserve can't have kids! What is up with that? Words of wisdom from a good friend "It'll happen when it's meant too" :O) Thank you Tonya! I love having friends who help me and don't just shrug their shoulders and change the subject. She doesn't do that! :O) Thank you! I will be fine and I will be much better in 2 days when I get to go see DH!! YEA!! I get to bring him home with me this time too!! :O)
We are on the waiting list for housing and it is only a 30 day list but there are houses open now. I hope we get one! :O) Have met some really nice people up there so far! Can't wait to actually meet them! We are all in the process of TTC. So that helps, it gives a little extra support in the baby making area! :O) Well I am working until 4 tonight so I am going to go! That is about all on my mind right now!
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| BUSY BUSY!! |
[05 Aug 2004|01:00am] |
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Today is a much better day! I talked to Jason and he was in a much better mood and we are ok! He said sorry and he loves me and we'll always be together! :O) That is why I love him so much! He is getting stressed with school and out processing! I called on prices for Penske truck today and stopped by one Dr. so I am doing some stuff! :o)
Not much is going on! Tonya was on tonight so I got to talk to her. Worked on my resume! Planning dinner! SHHH! ;O)
Met some girls on the Offutt group. They just aren't really as talkative on this one as MSN. It is just a weird set up! That is about it! Jill (my sister) is going to Tx with me the 13 to take Jason my car so he can come home the 16!!! YEA!! Only I don't get him until the 17 or so! But she is following me to bring me home!! :O)
Will write more later! Have a good night!
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| I failed!! |
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Well Jason and I got in a big argument! I am so hurt right now it is crazy!! He is mad at me because I broke his car and it isn't my fault because the fuel pump went out! I can't believe he is mad at me all the sudden about it! He was fine over the weekend when I told him about it! He keeps throwing this crap about stopping at his mom's on the way home from Texas before he comes home to see me! It just irritates me! He is stopping there Monday night staying the night and then spending all day Tuesday with her and then coming home! I told him if I didn't get his car fixed I would either come get him or would bring him my car. That isn't good enough because his mom and it just pisses me off! If I can't get a car to him I can't do it! His mom should be the one to come see him not him going to see her! I have supported him through this entire thing from day one! I am the one who has supported him since I met him! I am so hurt by this because they didn't ever pay attention to him unless they wanted something! I love him to death and would do anything for him! I wasn't there just because he is finally making something of himself! I helped him pay for his college tuition and supported him through that! I didn't go to college so he could! We didn't get help from them for his school! They wouldn't even co-sign for a student loan! It just feels like I have done everything I could and more for him in the last 6 years and so much for him in just the last 4 months and then I get put on the back burner like it was nothing! I failed him and I failed myself! I can't do anything right and I guess I have done anything the whole time he has been gone! Right now I don't know if I more upset with me or with him. It is like I completely failed and made him think I can't do anything! I don't know what to do! It hurts so BAD!! He is my life and I have done nothing but try to make him happy and be there for him! I don't think he realizes how much it hurt! I wish I could just be able to see and know that he really wants to come home to me and that he really wants me to go with him! He has had so much fun being "free" and I don't want to take that away from him! Today when he answered I got the impression he didn't want to talk to me! I just really hate myself right now and I feel like I will not be able to make him happy or anything! I don't get it! He was fine when I went down there the 23-25. What changed in that time period? He wanted nothing but to be with me that weekend! We were happy before he left and I am so proud of him for doing what he has done! I just wish that he would see what I have done right and not what I have done wrong. I wish he would see how much he means to me and how much I love him! I am always scared to tell him because I am afraid I won't get it back! His attitude has changed and I just want to be a couple again! Maybe things will get better and stuff! I don't know! I am writing him a letter. It will all be ok, we will get through this we are both just stressed and worried about moving and everything like that! Have a good night!
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| Weekend Update! |
[03 Aug 2004|01:17am] |
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This might be kinda long! Had a rough weekend! Let's start with Friday! I got woke up about 11:30 from Jason's Sgt. He had passed out and was taken to the hospital. So he was there all day and I couldn't be there with him b/c he is 6 hours away! Then got a hold of him later that day and he said he was fine and him and his friends were just going to hang out. I got his tags and everything that day. So that was very exciting! Saturday I had a HGP in Osawatomie. Drove Jason car b/c it started and wanted to make sure it was ok while Dad and Mom were still home. Did my party loaded the car and the stupid thing wouldn't start. I was mad!! So my BIL came and got me and we went to dinner for my sisters birthday. She is 27! Happy B-day to her! That was a very fun dinner. There were 12 of us and I think just about all of us had a drink! But I only had 1 Long Island Ice Tea. My brother was home b/c he was moving his wife out to NC to be with him! So they were there! The only person not was Jason, so that kinda sucked! But we called him and stuff! Then after we ate I went to the Boumont Club (country club) with my sister, Jill, and her girlfriend and then a couple they hang out with! They are all gay, so it wasn't much fun b/c I didn't know anyone and stuff. Maybe next time we will have to go with someone that I know and can hang out with! I don't like to dance with other guys so I didn't dance! :o( It really made me miss Jason! I love dancing with him. It is really hard to do but I got him to do it every once and a while! Sunday we called the tow company and they got my car. The guy got there and it started right up. Then mom and dad left for NC and I am home all alone! It is really nice! Tee Tee came in a little and laid on the couch! He is usually outside! I helped my sister, Heather, clean Josie's room and it was a mess. She was almost done when I got there and it was still bad! My niece is 5 and has everything a little girl could imagine so we were sorting toys and stuff all day! She is getting ready to paint it purple! Very exciting!
I am talking to my BEST friend Tonya! She is so funny!! I love talking to her b/c I can ask her stupid questions and she isn't mean to me! It really sucks that I can't meet her before she goes to England! I wish we could go too! I went to Sonic for lunch and she is mad at me now! :O) Cause she don't get any!! :oP Ok I just had to mention that! She is a very good person and has helped me so much! I feel like I have known her forever! I wouldn't be surprised if we were related or something! Dad says we weren't separated at birth! He says there was only 1 of me! :O) Good thing too b/c I don't like to share the "Daddy's Little Girl" title! :O) Sorry girl!
Jason is much better! He said he is fine and I believe him now that he went back to the Dr. I have to call and get enrolled in Tri-Care! He says he told me but I don't think he did! He is funny! He is a stubborn ass though!
I can't believe it is only 13 days and then he will be home! :O) I am sooo excited! I think I am going to do something very special for him! It is hard for me to plan something b/c we are living with my parents! Moved home about 2 weeks before he left to help me out. So it is hard to do anything at home b/c my parents will be there! Maybe I can set up a table and chairs in my room and have a nice little romantic dinner up there! Maybe don't know! I still need to go get my bed! I am sleeping on the couch right now!
Well it is almost time to go home! Yeah will write more later!
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| Friendship Prayer--May the fleas of a thousand camels infest the crotch of the person who screws up |
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Well my day started off crappy when I got home from work!! I broke Jason's car! I was driving and it sputtered so I gave it some gas and then made it home. Got home turned to park and it died! No it won't start. So my daddy is going to see if he could fix it and I am sooo scared to tell Jason! I am also supposed to be taking his car to him next weekend! But I don't see that happening! :O( I guess we are back to the normal plan and going down the 13th! I didn't need something else to happen that was going to cost us more $$!! My nerves are going nuts and it is making me sick! I hate that!
I got to work today and my friend Heather gave me that friendship prayer. It made me smile! Actually I laughed so hard I thought I was going to get in trouble. You know being at work you have to be all quiet and stuff so you don't disturb those who say they are working! ;O)
I am supposed to take Jason his car next weekend and I really don't think it is going to happen! I was supposed to go down with his mom. I have a fair booth on Friday and I have Kassidy and Emily Friday-Sunday. Plus if his car is not running I can't take it to him! I hate this! I didn't really want to go anyways. I want to see him but we had planned on me going the 13-15 because he gets to come home that Monday! YEA!! It is only like 18 days!! I am so ready!! I am just having a crappy day so far maybe it will get better!
Break is in 10 minutes so I will call my dad and see if he has tried anything. He thinks it just needs fuel injector or heet or something like that! :O) I checked everything else and everything was good! It could use a little oil but that wouldn't have caused the problem!
I met a girl on YAFW that gave me a link to a group on Yahoo that is at Offutt! So hopefully I will meet some people before I get there. Twila might be going there and that would be cool because I know her! Well kinda! :O)
My jaw hurts because my wisdom teeth are coming in!! I am really scared! My parents are helping my brother move to NC and I am by myself! :| The dogs will be there but that is it! They are taking the bed and that means I will have to sleep on the couch unless I can get someone to help me go get our bed out of storage! Guess I will have to sweet talk the BIL!! :O)
Well I need to get back to work!! Oh yeah! Jason got to do his first official AF operation today!! He got to fuel a F16!!! He was so happy! He also got but in charge of study group!! I am so proud of him!!
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This weekend was very nice. I got a little upset a couple times but I am ok now. I guess! :o) I got to go see Jason and he actually got to go off base this time! (Phase 2) He only has 22 days before he gets to come home! I am so happy!! But as far as the weekend goes. I went to get him Friday about 5 and waited until he got phased up and he finally got out about 7! Long wait but well worth it! After he got out we went to the hotel and ordered pizza just kinda hung out by ourselves. Then Saturday we went to the mall. He got some new clothes and sandals. We went out to eat that night at Pelicans. It is a steak/seafood restaurant. It was very good and nice to actually go to a nice sit down restaurant and eat with him. We finished eating and the waitress asked if we wanted desert and we were both so full we passed so she left to go get the ticket. She came back about 2 minutes later and said that our bill had been paid for by a gentleman in another section. We were so shocked/speechless what ever you want to call it we got out a tell him thank you. I got in my purse to get a tip and the gentleman sitting next to us said that he would get it and not to worry about a thing. It was very hard for us to both hold back the tears to see the community supporting the boys. We NEVER expected anything like that to happen. We just went in to eat and spend time together and something so great came out of it. We were so shocked! We didn't talk to each other for about 5 minutes because neither one of us knew what to say after that. We went back to the hotel and watched Kassidy's birthday party! I brought it for him and he was smiling the whole time he watched it! He got to stay the whole weekend off base so he got to stay with me at the hotel and it was nice. I thought before I got there "I am going to get the best sleep in the world these 2 nights b/c he is laying there next to me." Then I woke up atleast 3 times a night to make sure he was there! I slept about the same as always! :o) We checked out on Sunday and he was ready to go back to base so he could wear his civi clothes! He went to his dorm to change and came out with jeans, t shirt, and his tennis shoes. It was so funny watching him walk in those shoes! I asked him "Are you having problems walking in those?" He was like "yeah I almost fell down the stairs on my way back!" It was so funny! We went bowling Sunday and I sucked big time! He was bowling in the 100's and I was not even making it to 100! It was horrible, I usually do better than I did! :o)
We will (should) be arriving at Offutt about the 1 of September! I am ready to move!! I am a little nervous and stuff still! It will all be ok though!
Haven't talked to Tonya yet today but I will email her in a bit! I put a post on the groups to see if I could get some help with a fundraiser to get some care packages to some of the boys overseas! I got 4 replies from one group and I think 1 from the other! I am going to get that stuff ready to get in the mail this week! I hope we can raise some $$ for them. I hate not being able to talk to anyone on the weekends. I feel left out! But it is my own fault because I don't have internet!! :o( I will be ok! :o)
I had a friend(Denice) call me yesterday! She has a friend named Mel who I have met like 3 times. Well Mel had a dream I was pregnant so Denice had to call me to confirm! I am not that I know of but hopefully soon! :o) Just thought that was a little crazy! Someone I barely met had that kind of dream! My brother is able to tell if some one is pregnant b/c he gets this feeling and he gets some of the morning sickness! :o) So if her dream is true I will be getting a call from him! He has been having mood swings like crazy though!! :O)
Jason gave me money to get some bills paid and gave me extra! I was so upset! I didn't want to have him give me money! I wasn't so bad for the bills because they are his too but I didn't want the extra. He is just taking care of me! :o) I just don't want him to think I can't do it so that if he is ever gone for a TDY or deployment he isn't worrying about things like that! I know he will worry about me no matter what but I don't want him to worry about the $$ stuff! He also bought me my Shedaisy CD. I made him listen to the song "Come Home Soon" He thought it was pretty good!
Guess I should get to work maybe I will write more later! Not sure!
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the courage to change the things I cannot accept, and the wisdom to hide the bodies of those people I had to kill today because they pissed me off." :O)
I have this saying on me cubicle wall with a picture of a little fairy baby. It is so cute and some days that is just how I feel!
Only 1 more day and I get to see Jason again! :O) I am so happy! I feel crappy today. I don't know what it is but I do! I don't feel sick or anything I ache and have a huge headache! :o( I am kinda hungry too! I brought some broc. salad stuff but I think I might be hungrier than that! Maybe I will go to McDonalds or Sonic. Don't know! I have lots of stuff I need to do before I can leave and so I will be VERY busy tonight and tomorrow. I want to get everything done so I don't have to stop anywhere on the way down there. I do need to go by the storage unit to get his DVD's and civi clothes. I am so happy he gets to stay off base this time! :o) The weeks that I actually get to go down there seem like they go so slow! I hate it!
I got his car out of storage and am driving it this weekend. I am going to get it nice and clean and everything. Surprise him a little. I love going to see him but I am always scared I am going to mess something up. I think I will go to the car wash when I get off. It is 2 AM then and nobody will be there! :o) Plus it isn't HOT then! I don't know if I will get in trouble or anything but oh well!
I am in a crappy mood! I am so worried about seeing Jason. It has only been 3 weeks since I got to spend time with him but I am so scared I am going to mess something up or disappoint him! I hate feeling this way. He says I won't and I should just be happy I get to see him!
OK it's been a while. I have been working my tail off! :O) I am in a better mood! I think I am just tired and anxious to get to Texas. I am going to get everything done tonight!
I haven't heard from Tonya today! She emailed me after I left yesterday that she wasn't feeling well. I hope everything is ok!
My sister is watching our god-daughter this weekend! She is so excited to have her come stay with her. She has all these fun things planned for them! My family really loves this little girl. She is a doll, but she is also very spoiled. Terrible Twos!!
I have an idea about a fundraiser but I am going to work on it a little more before I decide for sure. I want to help out with the cost of shipping and stuff for some of the things going over seas. I am going to work on a game plan and see what I can come up with. :o) Perks of selling merchandise! We have great fundraiser candles and I think we could get quite a bit to help with shipping. Any ideas would be greatly appreciated!
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